Tag Archives: Suicide

Inside The Darkness

I have tried to live my life an exceptional opportunity, a human being with permission to fail.   When last I found myself in a cry, I wondered again, as so many times in my life, when will I find a way to die.   There is certain exhaustion inside a beautiful skyline we canContinue reading “Inside The Darkness”

The Circumstance of Abandonment

A close friend of mine said to me one time, you have a serious case of fear of abandonment. I hadn’t really thought about it as significantly as her words caused me to imagine, but ever since that day, I have paid close attention. Throughout my childhood, I can remember specific events all the wayContinue reading “The Circumstance of Abandonment”

A Letter To My Life – December 26th, 2019

To Whom It May Concern, I lost my mind today, the day began with a breakfast planned with my brother. We had just celebrated the Christmas holiday, and now when I reflect I recall a quiet perhaps eery drive home that night. I chose to sleep in the bed with my partner of many decadesContinue reading “A Letter To My Life – December 26th, 2019”

Inside the Mind

We can speculate our best analysis oh, knowing why what creates this avalanche becomes our bloodied pool of an aftermath. No amount of dust or gravel broken rock pieces of our reality might ever bury the truth inside demise.   Be good to your soul not theirs unless of course they ask then we mightContinue reading “Inside the Mind”

If I Could Choose Death

If rather than the label more the concept if could it be easier we get ahead of the presses until the months afterwards maybe even years let the pedestal rise rather than fall ill inside such is instability in the throes of love.   Instead of wondering anymore maybe conversations could begin all the gotchasContinue reading “If I Could Choose Death”

Last We Spoke

I told you I would forever want to ask your forgiveness.   Seemed typical of a man sensing a weakness he would seek only her compassion.   I never had the chance a full explanation why I did love you because your compassion …   held me together when in your eyes I could feelContinue reading “Last We Spoke”

I Would Though I Cannot

I stood on a bridge the biting chill freezing exposed skin hands wrapped clinging to a streetlight behind me my body hangs forward glancing upon ice tears finding open space where in moments might I disappear my boots heels on the metal base the streetlight my toes planted on snow one shift and a slip.Continue reading “I Would Though I Cannot”