Tag Archives: depression

A New Hammock

I was outside in my hammock all afternoon. My dog hung out with me. I am on this holiday, and my grief or self-reflection has been creeping in all afternoon. I stopped posting on my more public site because there is a person I don’t want to hurt with my expression of pain. I haveContinue reading “A New Hammock”

Peace of Mind

A friend has always said to me, you have to put yourself first, find your peace of mind, discover who you really are, and allow yourself to be. This coming from a person who willingly beats herself up psychologically to such a degree I sometimes fear she may no longer see the compassion I willContinue reading “Peace of Mind”

The Circumstance of Abandonment

A close friend of mine said to me one time, you have a serious case of fear of abandonment. I hadn’t really thought about it as significantly as her words caused me to imagine, but ever since that day, I have paid close attention. Throughout my childhood, I can remember specific events all the wayContinue reading “The Circumstance of Abandonment”

These Are Darker Nights

Tell people you are ok, look outside, it is all normal, the passing day, tomorrow will be the same, the next, the next, next time, flowers will begin to bloom the only simple truth is normal will remain, these are darker nights, lived with them, embraced them most of my life, my longest line ofContinue reading “These Are Darker Nights”

Inside the Mind

We can speculate our best analysis oh, knowing why what creates this avalanche becomes our bloodied pool of an aftermath. No amount of dust or gravel broken rock pieces of our reality might ever bury the truth inside demise.   Be good to your soul not theirs unless of course they ask then we mightContinue reading “Inside the Mind”

Last We Spoke

I told you I would forever want to ask your forgiveness.   Seemed typical of a man sensing a weakness he would seek only her compassion.   I never had the chance a full explanation why I did love you because your compassion …   held me together when in your eyes I could feelContinue reading “Last We Spoke”

I Would Though I Cannot

I stood on a bridge the biting chill freezing exposed skin hands wrapped clinging to a streetlight behind me my body hangs forward glancing upon ice tears finding open space where in moments might I disappear my boots heels on the metal base the streetlight my toes planted on snow one shift and a slip.Continue reading “I Would Though I Cannot”

Reaching Out

I wonder when it is our natural sense will reach out, when no other aspect of our lives might allow.   If in the moment our greatest fears come to haunt the shattered Grace holds the fabric of sanity, how swift the consequence.   Perhaps a glass of scotch may deaden the pain slamming myContinue reading “Reaching Out”