Have you heard of spinning out, the idea of losing it, a similar reaction to finding yourself surrounded by fire in a burning bedroom, there are no options, the only out is to keep breathing, but love doesn’t wait, won’t let me catch a breath, instead the irrational nature of pleading will help the demiseContinue reading “A Lover’s Demise”
Category Archives: Letters
A Letter For Her
Dear Memory, I really didn’t ever forget to write you back. Years ago, I could imagine you walking the long stretch of gravel to your home, I watched you carefully rip open the side of the envelope to pull my yellow legal paper out – always folded three times, with your Dear, tucked away onContinue reading “A Letter For Her”
The Final Days
Someone told me recently, it is time for a celebration. I was standing with the paperwork in my hands. I felt more like a lost loved one, had finally passed after a lengthy illness. I mean, even though life had checked out for well over a decade, the reality of the signed documents left meContinue reading “The Final Days”
I Took A Spill Today
I ingested a lot of pills with the intent of sleeping it off. Turns out my metabolism is such that my body is not quite ready to cave to the impulsive nature of my grief. Perhaps I am fortunate. I did call my brother when all else that I thought I could avail did certainlyContinue reading “I Took A Spill Today”
A Letter To My Life – December 26th, 2019
To Whom It May Concern, I lost my mind today, the day began with a breakfast planned with my brother. We had just celebrated the Christmas holiday, and now when I reflect I recall a quiet perhaps eery drive home that night. I chose to sleep in the bed with my partner of many decadesContinue reading “A Letter To My Life – December 26th, 2019”
If we could reply with timing …
So lest we forget the charm of our compassion is real when certainly in need. I once knew a woman in my younger years whom together we wrote a letter to each other at least once a week – this was during the time of real mail, waiting for days to see if the mailmanContinue reading “If we could reply with timing …”
The Taking of a Life
I’ve wanted to take my life for quite some time now. Well over 40 years, the thought has crossed my mind. This isn’t a cry for help. This is me trying to figure out what to do. I am a burden upon people. Oh indeed, I do give people rewards on their own lives, butContinue reading “The Taking of a Life”
Speaking of Love
I was thinking about you the other day, well I suppose every day. Nothing really changes in our lives. My life. I suppose I need to clear up the misconception. I don’t speak for you, only myself. I know what I feel is real, and it tells me everything I wish I might share withContinue reading “Speaking of Love”
The Once In Words
I wanted to write a letter today. Well, I want, always somehow to put words together might have meaning. I need, to find the right words, not simply the best words or more impactful per se, more courageously words that will express a value, again, a meaning, something meaningful. I want them to be readContinue reading “The Once In Words”
Lost In Curiosity
I walked outside tonight, like any other evening wondering about my life. I drove down the highway imagining headlights coming my way and losing control. I have to wonder why, I need to pull it together and again, as always recognize there is a purpose to my life. Just because things may not go myContinue reading “Lost In Curiosity”
Personal Testimony 